Why I’m here

First and foremost, thank you for taking the time to visit Locked In Health. It’s been a battle of will and the seasons of life to feel ready to be in the position to truly help others. As a skinny kid who always silently had self-esteem issues, I somehow always fit in. But I was never comfortable. Eventually, I met a few people in my life that brought out a little ambition and my desire to “be more” started to emerge.

I got into resistance training after meeting strong coworkers that looked the part.  As if they were bodybuilders. Having no clue what it would take with nutrition; I trained a lot, but didn't really look the part. That skinny kid with low self-esteem continued to live inside and I ignored a lot of red flags that I was going nowhere fast…mentally.

Over the course of almost 17 years, my strength went up, the aesthetics of having muscle showed, but there was still something missing. I performed well at work, my social life was somewhat stable, but there were always a few pieces that I just couldn’t figure out. Mindless self-destructive behavior and putting on body fat that I thought was healthy. I just wanted to be big. Bigger to portray myself differently than what I actually felt inside. I couldn’t figure out why I kept destroying relationships and reacting with anger in the most trivial disagreements. I couldn’t turn down a shot of alcohol when there was no reason to have one in the first place.

Then it finally came together. I was missing the conversations I needed to have with myself. The hard conversations to make the low self-esteem skinny kid feel like he was just fine being skinny. That he was safe and wasn’t bound to repeat cycles of other’s personalities, beliefs, or behaviors. Most importantly, that the skinny kid could change and be happy with what each day brought; not worrying about tomorrow. I turned to therapy, expressing my emotions not only to others when I felt them; but to myself. To feel them and use them to drive behaviors and healthy coping mechanisms to achieve a feeling of well-being.

Being grounded within myself, I found stability in my diet. Prioritizing protein, limiting alcohol, eating more whole foods and less take out. Mindfulness, recovery, and cardio. Now I enjoy the process of just being healthy. Not trying to cover up the skinny kid with muscle, alcohol, and McDonalds. I’m healthy because I care about that skinny kid, I want to see him thrive and be happy.

Which leads me to why I’m here. Through this journey, I’ve accepted something in myself that I always tried to push away because I was so absorbed with myself. I’m here to serve. In whatever way that I can to help you…yes…you. To help you achieve the same self-realization of health and well-being. There’s nothing that brings more fulfillment to me than helping someone achieve what they once thought wasn’t for them. Whether it be stepping foot in the gym and picking up a dumbbell or being able to confidently establish a boundary because YOU are most important. Because without a healthy you, there won’t be the full level of care for those that you love.

I’m here for you. To help you prioritize your health to live the life you wish to lead with better habits that you can be effortlessly proud of.

Now…Let’s lock in.